心是平靜的，還是心是硬的？
由開始到結束,我是否亳無感覺?
我為我們的傻話和傻情變得傻,變得痴,變得無知,變得白痴.
對,我也感覺自己像風,捉摸不住,飄忽不定.
愛也不太定時,說話不太準時. 對人不太認真,仿佛傷得太深.
連不上的我們始終走上分歧路,是命定,或是自我命定,現在一齊已確定.
淡淡的,沒有太大感覺. 很不認真的我,不懂深愛的感覺.
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
Friday, 15 January 2010
Some troubles and stress
Ya I may be naive and too irrational to fall in love with sb who is much older than me. Though sometimes I also feel that he cannot understand me, he also think that he should try to understand me more, at least he is willing to do so, being together in the romance is still the better option than separation.
Though I openly embrace and kiss with him, I didn't expect sb will talk abt me at the back. People are starting to make rumors and play politics, funny!
How dare to play politics with me!
He is my treasure, my safety net and my glory. He belongs to me, as I belongs to him. The only thing that I now desperately need is my direction and commitment to 2 things.. 3 things. Study, CC and him. But they are also one thing--God, for I do I do not do it for my own, but for Him and offer him the best I can by studying with His wisdom, contributing to CC with passion and loving him with compassion!
Things are becoming complicated and tasks are becoming more burdensome. I know I may one day offend sb with my rudeness and low EQ. I must hold my tougue and bear a tender heart to love and give. Most importantly, to forget myself as Jesus did voluntarily.
Days were so stressful. Complicated and in-depth readings are piling up. The tasks and responsibilities of the External Vice-President is very skillful and crucial. Despite having so many tasks on hand, my heart clings to staying with him. I guess he is 'an instrument' to procrastination. Ya. Venting out my emotion is also another instument. So I should stop here.
Be Strong
Though I openly embrace and kiss with him, I didn't expect sb will talk abt me at the back. People are starting to make rumors and play politics, funny!
How dare to play politics with me!
He is my treasure, my safety net and my glory. He belongs to me, as I belongs to him. The only thing that I now desperately need is my direction and commitment to 2 things.. 3 things. Study, CC and him. But they are also one thing--God, for I do I do not do it for my own, but for Him and offer him the best I can by studying with His wisdom, contributing to CC with passion and loving him with compassion!
Things are becoming complicated and tasks are becoming more burdensome. I know I may one day offend sb with my rudeness and low EQ. I must hold my tougue and bear a tender heart to love and give. Most importantly, to forget myself as Jesus did voluntarily.
Days were so stressful. Complicated and in-depth readings are piling up. The tasks and responsibilities of the External Vice-President is very skillful and crucial. Despite having so many tasks on hand, my heart clings to staying with him. I guess he is 'an instrument' to procrastination. Ya. Venting out my emotion is also another instument. So I should stop here.
Be Strong
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